I'm Having A Moment

With 2021 around the corner, my energy automatically goes back in time, like mercury in retrograde.  I'm seeing shit.  I'm feeling shit I don't want to feel.  I'm haunted by the ghosts of the fake shit from my past AND present.

One fake bitch always told me to "speak it into being" so here I go...

I wish for and may actually have, but cannot see:

Protection for my boys and I.

The truth about who I am 100%

Real ones/true love.

Loyalty.

When I was a kid my mother said to me, "You will be lucky to have one real, good friend in your life."  I thought she was just trying to teach me a simple lesson about random people.  No, she was being literal.  It really blows my mind and I'm not being dramatic either.  This is seriously the dealio.  

So Universe, I have questions that I will keep to myself, but I do expect answers by January 1, 2021.  

Thanks for reading.








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  1. I totally know where you're coming from V-💜💜💜-Kristi Orwig.

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  2. I like to think it into existence or meditate into existence

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  3. I know sometimes it may feel as if our parents sealed our fate planting that seed of doubt but I refuse to believe in it anymore. My father told me I would never find a man who would ever love me because I'm fat and disgusting when I was a teenager. They'd be those who'd use me for sex but nothing else. Learning about what you think you can manifest I now think about that kind patient King of Cups type of man who now after a nervous breakdown from years of abuse and neglect plus dr mixing meds she shouldn't have will probably be the only type of man I will be able to deal with. Which was sweet when I asked the cards who will be my one and I pulled 3 cards 2 of cups reversed, 5 of cups and King of cups. I know he's on his way he just has things to work out before he gets to me. Please don't listen to the negative voices in your head. I heard that for a month in my head before the breakdown. Walking, listening to music and trying to meditate to try and ground myself has helped in healing my brain but therapy has been a huge help. But I get it, I cry sometimes too when I think of how nice it'd be to have a female friend I could talk to, count on and who I could talk to without hearing take my rose colored glasses off, or that I'm wrong for questions I have. I live in the Bible belt and grew up in church. Seems my therapist is the only one I can talk freely with. Stay away from Cymbalta it's the medicine that pushed my completely over the edge and almost killed me. I'm sorry you're going through it and this is so long. Just trying to let you know you're not alone. There's alot of us.

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  4. I feel you on this V. As far as what your mother told you, my grandmother told me that when I was young. One day I might have that,maybe. I'm doubtful of it though. Seeing things and feeling things 2021 but in dreams. I don't like it.

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  5. I feel you on this V. As far as what your mother told you, my grandmother told me that when I was young. One day I might have that,maybe. I'm doubtful of it though. Seeing things and feeling things 2021 but in dreams. I don't like it.

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  6. i'll speak it into existence for you V. i very much believe in the power of the spoken word. i could give you all kinds of historical/religious references to demonstrate that humans have understood this since the beginning of time, but i have noticed thru the years watching you, that you are going to think your own thoughts. so, i'll just say it's a big change time for aquarius and aries folks. hang in there and know the people you have helped for years are standing with you as a protective block of energy. unwad your panties and be the awesome bitch you are---namaste

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    1. As long as I never have to deal with on particular Aries leach, I'll be fine :)

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